I got Blazblue yesterday, it's fantastic but i've wrecked my index finger on it now, it cost me £50 for hte game because it isn't out here but thankful those brilliant guys at sony made the PS3 region free :D

i sat and watched the last few weeks of Full Metal Alchemist : Brotherhood, it just keeps getting better but waiting for new episodes slowly saps life from me. waiting on the manga is worse, 40 pages a month isn't enough.

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Dad was over to see the shop yesterday, it was better than he throught it would be, which might be his highest compliment. mum on the other hand turned her nose up when she walked in which was the best we thought she would do.

I can't do much this week because conor is away but i'll get a few needed things sorted, i can get tables and make out a rough stock list that i'd like to order and get all that ready. Laura wants to repaint the walls this week which isn't a bad idea because it is needed badly. i'll have to get a filler for the walls because there are holes in the plaster in different places.

i got excited eariler because i randomly went to the reuben homepage after watching an old video on youtube and was greeted with news that they are releasing a B-sides and rare tracks double CD with a live DVD it has all the tracks i couldn't download so i rushed to amazon and spent half of my food money for the next 2 weeks on it. that was grand.

later i was researching the new game square is releasing this year in japan (you buy cards like in magic) but you play the game on an arcade machine but it's jp only (if it had been usa too i might had been tempted to import a machine for the shop) and i decided to check out a few other games i wanted and ended up ordering Disgaea DS (like final fantasy tactics) i realised after thats my food budget gone but i refuse to cancel either thing now i get to lose weight at the same time as i really enjoy games and music :)

today was meant to be my wedding day but everything seems so normal and boring today.
i sent Ciara a message this morning because we havn't spoken in about two months and i wanted to strike up conversation to see how she was doing even tho i get really sick whenever i speak to her. the first message was meant to be a bit cheeky but cheerful but she never replied, i guess i mean nothing to her now but thats the way these things go i guess.

i'm grabbing a few mates and heading out tonight and tomorrow night to cheer up a bit, i've been dreading this day for nearly a year which is a bit unhealthy but it'll be over in 11 hours so i'll get drunk and cope with it.

i still can't help wondering about alot of things, like how it would of worked out if i knew what the problem had been and had gotten over it, what would the wedding be like today, would everyone have fun, would i have been made to do the first dance and what the honeymoon would of been like.
i'm still convinced we were right for each other but i'm just gonna listen to what everyone tells me and not worry about, everyone keeps saying that if things were meant to be they'll happen again so i'm just going to have as much fun as i can and see where life takes me.

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i feel like i'm finally settled in belfast, we're all getting on well in the house.

I've started all the prep work for the shop, we have the location and suppliers and i should have the cash next week (i hope). i'm kinda bricking it but i'm sure it'll turn out well in the end.

i've got a bit of time to burn so i guess i'll do a tiny update.

I've been in the house for about a week now and i've got to say i'm really happy with things so far. things are begining to look more sensible now because laura's room is ready and she has taken her stuff out of my room and the living room.
in the next few days i'll have to sort my room, it doesn't feel like things are in the right place yet.
we've been getting on really well, no one really leaves a mess and we're all working around each other. the only thing that gets in anyones way is dishes but they get sorted in the end and if thats the worse of the problems then we'll be grand.
i think the fact we've all known each other for 6-7 years helps and being family adds to that.

i'm thinkin of having a small party next weekend to warm the house for myself.

for some reason i really want to delete this livejournal, i also wish i hadn't deleted my other one.

I couldn't sleep this morning, my heads been a flutter with something really important that i can't talk about yet. i decided to watch a movie to pass the time and i'm glad i did. i watched "The Girl Who Leapt Through Time" which is one of my favorite films :) but it makes me wonder what i'd change in time if i only had one chance. i can think of at least 3-4 major things i'd do/change/stop and i wonder how different my life would be.
i was also thinking along the same lines at the last search meeting, if i hadn't went i'd be a very different person and wouldn't have the same friends that i do now but i'd also never have met Ciara which would be terrible but i also realised that i'd never have had my accident because i'd never have got into magic (most likely) but i know i'd still take the option because apart from physcially i'm happy with who i am and who i have around me.

I've been pretty fed up with my disability lately, sometimes i actually like it which is hard to fathom or beleive, i sometimes like it because it allows people to remember me or sometimes they are impressed with me espically when it comes to computer games, that seems kinda shallow but it really cheers me up when someone talks about how good i am at soul calibur and when they say stuff like " he'd win everytime if he could use his other hand too" well that one is a bit bittersweet. but like i was saying i'm getting fed up with this body, i keep day dreaming about being able to reconstruct my whole body, remake myself stronger and smarter :s but day dreaming gets you nowhere.

Laura got our house sorted. it's on sandymount street just off strandmillis. i havn't seen it yet but if laura likes it then i'm sure it'll be grand. i had a bit of a laugh when i realised where it was, it's beside the house that my mates kinda trashed ( http://otakusean.livejournal.com/2008/12/21/ ) so at least they'll be able to find it :)

i google mapped it and i was shocked by how cool google maps has gotten. i was able to look at the house face on and it looks grand. i can't wait to get settled in it's just a pity i have to wait until july to.

i love easter monday, swatragh feels as big as the whole of belfast on days like this.
i'll just be sitting in the bar and someone will come up to me and look as happy as an orgamism to see me out and about enjoying myself.
me and dee just walked between bars having a laugh and talking to people that we both hadn't seen in a bit. days like today reinforce the idea that i'm still part of this little community that i grew up in and that is pretty heart warming.
it's a pity laura doesn't feel the same. she left really early while i on the other hand renforced old friendships and got to speak to people that i havn't spoke to in a long time.
many people may say that it doesn't make them frends anymore but it really put a smile on my face to speak to some of them again.

days like today fill me with cheer

i'm annoyed i can't afford the cosplay costume i want. i've wanted to cosplay as a member of the shinsengumi for a while because they are pretty cool and the uniform is awesome looking. i found an ebay shop that does a very good looking costume but the cost is about £170 and that without shipping :(




maybe next year.

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i had a brilliant time on wedensday night at the eagles of death metal gig, my memeory is a little hazy i admit but i can't forget the feeling of enjoyment i had.

i don't normally post comics but todays smbc got me good